Ranger_47

Ok I'm in 10th grade, I get good grades an high test scores my parents don't say angain. I got horrible grades in middle school and then I started getting really good grades my parents never said a word of congraz but when I had horrible grades I would get grounded and everything. Now I get good grades and they don't notice. My parents want me to do all this stuff that I don't want to do I have tried telling them no but all the say is "your going to do it or you can move out". I won't do that but now things are getting worse, I like to play computer games so they put a time limit on it, I get odds when I need to mostly everytime but one time I didn't and they freaked out. My house is ruled by hitler almost or that's what I call it, Its a bloody dictatorship and I hate. Whatever he says goes if you make a mistake you get a horrible punshment. He thinks life is work work work no fun but work. I come home from school do all my home work do my chores or at least the ones I remember (I have a horrible memory but they think it's just a exuse) som times a forget to do one and thy freak out again about how I'm so immature and ilresponsible. I do help out alot but it seems I get no credit . I'm not even a only child I have a older brother and younger sister. I'm the middle child. I have tried to talk with my parets but all it turns in to is a yellin match me getting grounded abd told sh$t about how I don't do anything. That's thing I do I do alot I go above and beoumd most of the time. When my broker and sister don so there chorus or what there told nothing happens but I get yelled for the one thin I didn't do. When it turns in to a argument I get so mad I walk out the front door and my dad says ok good bye like in a happy voice. He doesn't care ibhabe treatened to kill myself alot of times they ignore it or my dad says ok do it I'll watch. I was like wow and that was the first time I said it. It seems like my parents don't believe in mistakes inless they make them hen it's ok, it's like I have to be perfect, or more like my brother. I have a horrible childhood, I hate it, I'm pretty sure I'm adopted because I can't relate to anyone in my famliy one bit. They never listen to me. They don't trust me I have never lied to them. I have ADHD. They dont understand. I have asked to be put up for adoption or sent to a military school. I want to be a marine, I asked them at dinner if they cared if I got shoot in the line of duty and they said "you better be blown up that we don't Have to pat for a casket. I don't do much bad, but they always fid a fault in me to yell about every day. I think about wanting to kill myself alot but I know it's wrong but I don't even think they will care at all. Please help I don't know what to do, I always put other people before myself but thaey think I'm so self centered that I rule the whole world. I really want to hve a good famliy but I don't think that will happen in less I get some famliy consouling which will nver happen. Help pealse!!!

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