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I am literally desperate for a job, I have absolutely no money and a ton of expenses. I have applied to a ton of different places over the last week or two and only got one call back. It was from Starbucks, which is a great option and im glad to have gotten an interview. The problem is I am very much a night person. I take night/late afternoon classes and have completely screwed up my sleep schedule. I have class from like 5pm to 9pm and that is my only responsibility right now. I sometimes go to bed at like 4am (Which is when Starbucks OPENS) and wake up around noon-ish, and it's been like that for a couple years now (though Ive always been an insomniac).

Mind you, I have not been through the interview yet so I don't even have this job as of now but I just want to be prepared.He has already seen my resume and im pretty good at interviews. I don't want to lose this job without having another option because I need the money. However I feel like if I take it, ill never sleep. Once summer comes around it will be easier because I won't have night classes, but as of right now it sounds like hell. And if I take it, but then get a different offer from a prior application with mid-day hours, I can't just quit when I was just hired. So im not really sure what to do. The interview is tomorrow. If im hired on the spot do I take it and force myself through it because the economy sucks and life is hard(people do it)? Or do I wait it out until another offer comes up (If it comes up)? Or is their something I can say to the interviewer that gives me time to think? It's just a part time job that many young adults could fill...

19,female with very little job experience

I was diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder when I was 15. It started when I was very young. So many ups and downs. I was missing a lot of school, had a lot of random migraines, and the obvious highs and lows that make a lot more sense to me now. My family always noticed this so I finally went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed, just like my mother, with hypomania (A little less severe manic episodes). I went on medication and did psychotherapy for about 2 years. It definitely helped my sleeping and stabilized my mood, but the side effects were too much for me to handle and it was difficult getting in the habit of taking a pill every day. I didn't like it so I stopped. I slowly got off the medication and was about 18 years old when I completely stopped taking it, so I didn't tell my family (My psychiatrist knew). Right away I started FEELING the emotions again, but I was so used to it and prepared that I never SHOWED or acted on them. Just the simple fact that I know I have bi-polar disorder, has helped me cope and adapt. I repress them. And I know this sounds unhealthy and weird but it has worked. All of my relationships that would've been destroyed when I was younger, are perfectly in tact and no one even knows the difference. I know that I don't really hate myself, so when I feel depressed my minds puts it off as my disorder acting up, I ignore it, and wait for it to go away. I KNOW that I im not the smartest person in every room so when I feel that overconfidence in my abilities, I talk myself out of it and wait for that to go away too, and it does. So my question is: Is this possible? lol Does this make any sense to anyone? Can rational thought override internal emotions?

I want something small and simple in either black or white. I love the meaning behind Yin and yang but I don't necessarily like the actual yin yang symbol... is there anything that means balance or good vs evil type of thing that would be cool for a tat? Words and phrases are fine and so are other languages. Thanks!

I'm using internet explorer, Windows 7, with dell. If I were to google something, then click on one of the sites, it would take me to a completely different site kind of like a pop up. Like let's say I google "Jesse Eisenberg" (sorry for the randomness, my sister is doing some project that had to do with him), then I click on IMDb, my computer would take me to "booking.com" or something like that and it'd show my ip address on the tab while it's loading.

I scaned my computer using Norton's, it found nothing. I scanned it using malwarebytes anti malware, it found nothing. I used my phone to look up this problem and the closest thing I could find was a virus called Kaspersky. I followed every direction on one of the forms... Didn't work. It definitely seems like I have a redirect virus but nothing I do works. I downloaded the TDSSkiller, which most people said worked, and it found nothing. I even went into my computer files just looking for something that looks off and everything looked fine to me (not that I know what my computer needs and what it doesn't). I restarted and rebooted my computer and that didn't work either...

The only thing I did wrong that I can think of is I updated my adobe, and I heard they were hacked or something but no one seems to have my same problem of slow interney and redirecting popups (and it really does seem like the Kaspersky thing but my computer doesn't seem to think so)

I have no clue what to do now, I feel like I've tried everything and it's so frustrating... Any suggestions?

I am an 18 year old female. Ive never had sex, but I have an extremely high sex drive (if that makes any sense). Ive wanted sex since before I even knew what sex was. I remember being a very little kid with very disturbing thoughts. I did go to a doctor and figured out my testosterone is higher then it should be, which expands SOME of it.

Since I figured something was wrong at a very young age, my parents were very good at teaching me morals and values and the dangers of sex and sexual diseases which I DO believe saved me from many situations with strangers...which brings me to the reason I'm so frustrated.

I cannot sustain male relationships. I can not be friends with ANY males without thinking about sex, and I cannot have monogamous intimate relationships because for some reason I have never been attracted to anyone in THAT way. I also hate certain aspects of intimacy... hugging, kissing, "baby", "sweety", flirting... it literally makes me sick to my stomach. All of my friends are females. Im at the point where taking to men just makes me uncomfortable. I went to therapy for a bit a few years ago but money became a problem.

Before anyone asks, I was not molested, I have a good relationship with my father, and my parents are happily married. This is just how I am without much reason.Sorry this is so long...Im just looking for some real world advice from real people so I can get through these next few years until I can afford the inevitable therapy ill probably end up needing lol it's really effecting my life, my job, my school everything and there is nothing I can do about it...

I know that alcohol is a mind altering substance... But Ive been drinking here and there since I was way underage to be completely honest, and not once, even in the beginning, have I ever lost control of my actions or thoughts. And there are times when I have drank A LOT... Physically walking is never a good idea... and I do get dizzy, even sick sometimes...And I do feel the effects of alcohol, but mentally... Nothing changes. My mind is exactly the same. My thoughts are exactly the same. So I was just wondering how normal this is... most of my friends will come back from parties or whatever and tell these crazy stories of the stupid stuff they have done when they were drunk and I just cannot relate. I can fully type, and text complete sentences even when im completely drunk... Im not a big girl...im 5'5" and fit. I can take the same amount of shots as a full grown, 300 pound man and act better after drinking... Actually the reason I am asking this is because I am drunk right now. I just got back from a party where my friends were acting like complete idiots and I drank MORE then them... Anyone know why?

I was never a huge anime fan.. Actually, even as a little kid, I was never a cartoon fan. However I am a huge movie/tv show buff... I love complex, character driven type of things. I am very picky about it but once I like something I really get into it lol.

The cartoons that I watched was teen titans, Danny Phantom, American Dragon Jake Long.. Literally I think that was it lol.

The first real anime that I got into a couple years ago, and actually liked, was Boys Over Flowers. After that I tried to get into other things but they all seemed cheesy and uninteresting to me.... And the graphics on some of then are quite annoying. Then I found Death Note. It was AMAZING! The ending wasn't my favorite but for the most part I loved it! After that I watched Code Geass and that was even better in my opinion. So now im looking for something similar... Something with maybe complex characters that are easy to fall in love with. Kind of like Lelouch, Light (Kira), L-ish lol. My friend, who is a huge anime fan, recommended something called fullmetal alchemist but it looked a little weird to me with the whole robot thing lol and it's kind of confusing because it seems there are two different shows with the same characters and name... I don't know if I should watch one, both, or neither...

So any suggestions?

I still have time, but I really don't want to be one of those students running, aimlessly around trying out new classes and changing directions all the time. For starters, I'm already about a year behind due to some major health issues I had last year. Secondly, I'm very low on cash so id like to get the most out of any class I pay for. My plan is to go to community college, get my general education classes out of the way, and then transfer to a university. I feel like it could be a little cheaper that way.

Now don't get me wrong, I don't need anyone to choose a major for me right this second. I just need some type of direction because I have don't any right now and it's a bit frustrating... I live in somewhat of a small town in Illinois and there is very little career inspiration. It is a very "kindergarten approach" to how everyone seems to look at jobs (i.e. firefighter, cop, teacher....). However I know there is a lot out there so just to know career/job ideas would be great.

My best subject is English/reading/writing. My worst is math (I'm just bad with numbers in general) but I can still get by as long as I have a calculator. I am a tv show/movie fanatic. I love to read. I have a huge imagination, way too big actually considering I'm 18 lol, I can get completely lost in a good book. I mostly watch crime shows or "psychological" type things. My favorite part is usually the "villain". I'm absolutely OBSESSED with how the mind works. Human behavior in general astonishes me. I spent most of middle school looking for sociopaths/psychopaths... I also love commercials believe it or not... The whole advertising industry is interesting.

Some careers I know of, that I'd be interested are:

Therapist/psychologist

lawyer/paralegal

Writer (tv show/movie/book/advertising)

Any ups and downs with any of these? Any other ideas?

Now that it is spring and the weather is getting nicer I can feel my depression coming back already. I think I already have somewhat of a good idea as to why I am depressed in the summer... Im a bit of a loner. I actually like it that way. I use to have a lot of friends but I got really sick. I started having migraines all the time and I never made it to school. I lost most of my friends that way, just by lack of contact... But it honestly didn't affect me like it should have because I always loved being alone. Going out was always just a way to please everyone else. I still have a few people that I call friends but it feels more like acquaintances. To be completely honest Id even go as far to say I have one friend who I feel close-ish to. The problem is im 18 years old. My parents and siblings are very social and we have people over at my house all the time. And because we don't have any money everyone is ALWAYS home. We also cannot afford an air conditioner. The mix of all the people, the hot weather, and the pressure to be out doing things because it is summer and that's what 18 year olds are suppose to do, literally makes me sick to my stomach. I also have a lot of body issues (mostly my teeth and my weight) that I am working on which contributes to my depression. On top of all this I still have migraines all the time... It has not only put me back a year in school but it has prevented me from getting a job and just life in general. My parents still have to drive me around and pay for everything ect... And it sucks because I was always extremely independent. I have the maturity of an 18 year old and the life of a 15 year old. And im not interested in dating... Like at all... Is that weird? Im just not really sure what to do at this point. I know it's coming because it has happens for the past few years. If I had it my way Id be locked in a dark, cold room with a computer and internet. How depressing does that sound? lol The thing is I don't actually FEEL depressed.. Like Im not sad, im actually happy just watching movies, tv shows, reading, exercising by my self... but I know that this is what depression is... And it is the pressure to be doing what everyone else is doing that really makes me FEEL depressed... Any advice??

Im currently in the process of losing weight. I joined a gym and have been on a strict diet for a long time now... I already lost a lot but I have about 40 more pounds to go... Just wondering if I got a tattoo right now how would it be affected by a significant amount of weight loss... And please don't say to just wait until I lost the weight because most likely I will but im just wondering what would happen, out of curiosity, if I went right now what would happen to the tattoo.

I live in Illinois btw.... But I need actual laws...Anything to do with mental illness. Are there any laws that have to do with the insanity defense? Or is that just a defense?

*Deep Breath*. OK, so I just joined a gym for the first time 2 weeks ago. Im 18 years old, 5'4", 180 pounds and female. My goal is to get down to around 130 within about two years because I want to keep it off! (lifestyle change). Im on a very strict diet (I have pcos, I am a vegetarian and I am insulin resistant if any of that makes any difference to you). The only exercise I've ever done in the past is running (and I was on a few sports teams) but I've always been bigger (never under like 150-160). So far I've been to the gym everyday for about an hour and a half a day but I'm planning, at minimum, to go 4-5 days a week (5 days cardio, 3 days weights).

With my gym membership I got a free assessment from this really great trainer who is one of the owners I believe (I say really great but I guess I wouldn't know the difference lol). He showed me how to use some of the machines because I didn't know how to use ANY of them and...well he "assessed me" I guess lol. We did some arm things and some leg and thigh things, a couple stomach things.... I did some squats with something called a smith machine...

So after that, I go home and googled some routines I should do because I can't afford a trainer to tell me everyday what to do and all I got was a bunch of mixed and contradicting advice. For example the only machine I knew the name of was the smith machine and about half the things I read on the internet say it's not good to use for some reason.. but the trainer recommended it...And the googling just got worse and more confusing from there...

Look, I just want to loose weight, tone up, and be healthy. The gym I go to is average size so im sure it has the machines most gyms have... I need a routine or a schedule or even a good website! What machines are good to use and what aren't... Anything really... Even just some advice would be great! Please help! Thanks in advance :)

On a side note, I need to loose a lot of fat everywhere, but in particular I have a larger upper body and because I have pcos, my testosterone levels are a little bit higher and I don't want to lift weights and get really big lol. And as for cardio I actually don't mind running.

I'm 17 and this is NOT my first period. I was diagnosed with PCOS and my periods were always really light mostly just spotting... I now have started birth control and Metformin. Ever since I started taking bc, my periods have been extremely, uncomfortably long and heavy. The biggest and longest pad in the store is still very messy and does not hold in all the blood (especially at night) even when changing them like every hour. It clots a lot. And I can't use tampons because every time I have I get these awful lower stomach pains for some reason. Anyways what I have been doing, is sticking a bunch of toilet paper in "my folds" lol, with using pads as well. It isn't the most comfortable thing in the world but it works. I've been doing this for a while but im not sure how healthy that really is.... I'm just not use to these heavy periods and im not really sure what else to do. Any advice?

I've asked this question before on here but didn't get many answers. I would get this dream every now and then ever since i was little but for some reason recently its been more frequent. It's always different but stays very similar. I would say it was a nightmare but in the dream I am perfectly content killing these strangers... Its when I wake up and think about it that disturbs me... The weird part is it's usually very detailed and im very good at it. I'd always use a knife to kill them and Id always do it with one or two stabs. I would pull out all their teeth and burn their finger tips before I cut the body into pieces, drain it of blood, and bury the pieces in different places around the world. There are usually one or two people helping me but I never remember their faces. I always magically end up in a bunch of different countries all in walking distance. It's all very odd.. and I usually do this during the day, in the sunlight, out in the open where everyone can see me but no one cares I guess. When I would talk to the people around me we would have normal, polite conversations as Im cutting the bodies. A couple of times i've even caught myself dreaming because everything was so familiar. I remember knowing that I was dreaming but not being able to stop. My life is pretty normal, nothing traumatic has happened... that I know of. I'm a 17 year old girl in high school and I don't contemplate killing people on a regular basis lol. I don't even watch crime shows or anything so I have no idea where I get my "how to kill people" info lol so does this mean something? Or do I just go all professional psycho in my sleep for no reason? Please help! As I get older the more detailed it becomes and the more I remember... It's starting to freak me out.

I do take melatonin to sleep if that makes any difference...

I would get this dream every now and then ever since i was little but for some reason this past couple months its been more frequent. It's always different but very similar. I would say it was a nightmare but in the dream I am perfectly content killing these strangers... Its when I wake up and think about it that disturbs me... The weird part is it's usually very detailed and im very good at it. I'd always use a knife to kill them and Id always do it with one or two stabs. I would pull out all their teeth and burn their finger tips before I cut the body into pieces, drain it of blood, and bury the pieces in different places around the world. There is usually one or two people helping me but I never remember their faces. I always magically end up in a bunch of different countries all in walking distance. It's all very odd.. and I usually do this during the day, in the sunlight, out in the open where everyone can see me but no one cares I guess. When I would talk to the people around me we would have normal, polite conversations as Im cutting the bodies. A couple of times i've even caught myself dreaming because everything was so familiar. I remember knowing that I was dreaming but not being able to stop. My life is pretty normal, nothing traumatic has happened... that I know of. I'm a 17 year old girl in high school and I don't contemplate killing people on a regular basis lol. I don't even watch crime shows or anything so I have no idea where I get my "how to kill people" info lol so does this mean something? Or do I just go all professional psycho in my sleep for no reason? Please help! As I get older the more detailed it becomes and the more I remember... It's starting to freak me out.

I do take melatonin to sleep if that makes any difference...

I've been going to therapy for ASPD since I was a little girl. I have always had all the symptoms. It didn't take long before "sociopath" became a part of my family's everyday vocabulary. I was actually a pretty extreme case. I was never abused as a child or anything,I guess I was just born this way. Not that I ever cared. I've seen dozens of therapists and I've been in and out of mental institutions. All while thinking it was the funniest thing in the world. I was always a smart kid but my mother's only goal for me in life was to not end up a serial killer lol... The only compliment she could ever give me was that I am beautiful. I don't know if it was the therapy, the meds, or just me getting older but I've learned to control myself. Im 17 years old now, I still see a therapist but i'm in a normal high school and i'm doing better then ever. Don't get me wrong the symptoms are ten times worse, but I see it now. It's the weirdest thing... I'll go about my day being my normal self, but at night I hate myself for it. I want love and I feel guilt, just not at the right times. I even contemplated suicide a couple of times, which is weird because I would always make fun of people for that. It's a very lost and uncomfortable feeling. I don't want to be an awful person, but I'm going to wake up tomorrow morning and do the same things all over again. I never feel guilty for anything specific it's just guilt for not feeling guilty, if that makes any sense... I'm not exactly sure what to do at this point... Therapy's a joke, im dead to my family, and none of my "friends" even know I was ever diagnosed as a sociopath. 90% of the time im the most confident person in the world, it's the other 10% that's killing me... I was happier as a kid when I didn't care. I don't even know what I'm asking I guess i'm just looking for someone to say something helpful because i'm loosing my mind.

I need to loose a lot of weight. Im at 212 lbs right now and my goal is 130-140 lbs by mid November (which is about 8 months from now, an average of 2 pounds per week). Im on a strict no carb, no sugar diet (nutritionist recommended [I have PCOS\insulin resistance]). I have also been a vegetarian for 2 years now. I've already lost 10 pounds doing nothing physically but im pretty sure that was all just water weight and I know it's going to get harder. I usually walk or run a couple of miles on my treadmile and I have 3 pound weights I lift sometimes but I don't feel like it's enough. So if anyone has any ideas of a few workout routines I can do each day of the week to loose weight that would be really helpful! thanks :) I also don't have money for a gym membership or expensive equipment.

[I need to loose weight all over but my main focus would be underarm, stomach\hips, and thighs]

I'm a 17 year old girl with PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome). I also have Insulin Resistance. I am currently not on medication because I have frequent, very painful migraines and it was recommended I check that out with a neurologist before I go on any kind of birth control. It was also recommended I lose weight. I've started a no carb, no sugar diet (Nutritionist recommended). I'm three weeks into my diet today, and I've lost 10 pounds so far (I've also been a vegetarian for a year and half). I started at 220 lbs, I am now at 210. My goal is to lose at LEAST two pounds a week (so far so good) and I figure by about November I'll be at 130-140 (which is a healthy BMI for my weight and height (5'4")). I've always eaten healthy and exercised and im a pretty determined person, I just never knew about insulin resistance. So I just want to know if this is a reasonable goal. Should I aim higher? or lower? I have a lot of weight to lose to be healthy but I don't want to cut corners. I want to do this right. Get it off and keep it off the fastest way I can. Any other suggestions or advice about diet\exercise or PCOS\insulin would be very helpful!! :) thanks.

I'm a 17 year old girl with PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome). I also have Insulin Resistance. I am currently not on medication because I have frequent, very painful migraines and it was recommended I check that out with a neurologist before I go on any kind of birth control. It was also recommended I lose weight. I've started a no carb, no sugar diet (Nutritionist recommended). I'm three weeks into my diet today, and I've lost 10 pounds so far (I've also been a vegetarian for a year and half). I started at 220 lbs, I am now at 210. My goal is to lose at LEAST two pounds a week (so far so good) and I figure by about November I'll be at 130-140 (which is a healthy BMI for my weight and height (5'4")). I've always eaten healthy and exercised and im a pretty determined person, I just never knew about insulin resistance. So I just want to know if this is a reasonable goal. I have a lot of weight to lose to be healthy but I don't want to cut corners. I want to do this right. Get it off and keep it off the fastest way I can. Any other suggestions or advice about diet\exercise or PCOS\insulin would be very helpful!! :) thanks.

it can be a little before too. 1950-1970 max. I know thats a long range but the 1960s songs are the most important. If you could just write as many as you can that would be really helpful! 10 points best answer! Thanks :)