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So I decided to cut ties with him, and that cane with him saying you don’t want me in your life but you want follow me which ended up him and I unfollowing each other.

And months had gone by, and I can’t stop thinking about him. I did what I did for me, because I knew deep in my heart he wasn’t ready for a relationship or any serious, but I’m not his Lucy girl.

I Constantly Think about him, wish by after 16 weeks he would’ve texted, or followed me, or anything. But I think I was right he never had like, but I’m holding on to the good parts of him, and I want to stop, I don’t want to make a fool of my self that I can’t ever face him.

He probably has a girl now, could be why he didn’t want me following him when I ended it.

We were just talking, even asked me to be his girlfriend, we spoke for 6 months. I didn’t know where we stood that’s wa the problem.

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We went from friends to more then friends to more. It was confusing. We spoke on the phone.

So today I followed him, I did to see if he would follow back, and if he ddI that I know he still cares, if he didn’t then I block him and his number and social media for good.

Is that stupid?

Can you guys read my other question to know and understand this, thank you.

So he texted me last night I didn’t expect him to text me after he tried to push me away and scare me. He said he likes me and said what we both want is different, he wants a relationship where there’s sexual things in and I’m Muslim so is he but I can’t do that I would hate my self for breaking the rule. I like him but I know he doesn’t wanna relationship he just wants sex and getting head and I’m not the type of girl. So we met at college and went to this empty room, he said few cute things to get me to sit on his lap and we talked and he kept saying you ste you had boyfriends, I didn’t I had one long distance never meet, but I had my first kiss which was not bad tbh, but it’s been years since I have had boyfriends and kissed anyone. So he started rubbing my tight against his dick, I felt it, it was hard and he was horny, when he said he was horny it kinda turned me on, but not enough to be stupid and fall under his spell. So he started touching me, I’m not gonna lie I liked it and I hate that he didn’t ask me out and we could’ve done some of this later in the relationship, and I feel like I have been played, we started kissing, I liked it but there was a moment I froze and let him continue because I didn’t want this to happen like this, so because of this moment I froze my mind tricks me into thinking I didn’t enjoy the kiss, and that I’m a lesbian for it.

I don't get why people laugh or think I'm joking when I tell them I wanna be a detective. Is t because I'm a Muslim girl, I wear hijab and skirt.

The only reason I'm not going though with this is because I'm afraid that I'm gonna make a mistake, and that people will take me as a joke if a Muslim girl becomes a police officer.

I could follow my dream or be a primary school teacher.