Can someone help me please?

aww...how awful for you, i am sorry for your loss.really i am.

i wish...i mean this is awful AND HE/she LEFT YOU!

what a £$%&*@?!!!!!

for starters,forget about your partner,they left you when you NEEDED them,you were pregnant,fgs!!!

you lost one of the most precious things in the world,a life you created,and this partner has already gone,left you to deal with this heartbreak alone.

so forget this person,they may have been your only confidante,but they have made their stance pretty clear.

secondly,right now you are going through a bereavement.

a real loss,a death of a loved one.

a loved one you didnt get to show the whole of your love too, but a loved,beloved one all the same.

you need to mourn this child like you would anyone else.

go through the grieving process,don't hold back.

it can be so very hard,i know many people who have had miscarriage...one lady had as many as 14 lost children in a row.

you have lost a piece of yourself.

a piece of your life,your future and past and present.

i think you should tell someone,no one,least of all you,deserves to keep this pain inside.

share the problem with your doctor,relative,friend...the woman you speak of.

i am frankly disappointed if your doctor has not given you his/her undivided attention.

you need so much,this emotional burden will not heal itself.

yes..you need a confidante.

if you keep this inside it WILL NOT go.

dont jump into any relationships yet,my aunt was married at the time, so had a shoulder to cry on,but it is not good to snatch any shoulder from anywhere.

a friend, relative, doctor, or the woman definitely.

i would try any other close person to you before broaching this with the helper at work.

you never know what she could do or say,she isnt someone you know right now.

oh i feel so awful for you...new house,newly broken up,a lost child,problems at work,few friends...how much heartbreak can one person take?

no surprise this is eating you up.

at least the few boys are being dealt with,have you taken time off work at all?..more problems are the last things you need to deal with right now,i am assuming.

now i am out of space now hun,but i would say keep strong,dont let this eat you up.FIND SOMEONE TO TALK TO,cry if you need it,listen 2 sad songs,they help,do WHATEVER is needed,build those friendships if you need to,break stuff,take leave,SCREAM THE HOUSE DOWN,just remember,this terrible loss-you cant lose yourself too-not now.so many people have beaten their sadness,you will succeed too..just stay strong,i will be thinking of you,i hope i helped,just a tiny bit,PLEASE hold on,i am totally (i am an atheist-i would pray!) hoping wishing begging that you will get through this,stay safe...bibi now.good luck :)xxx