Is attempted suicide a criminal offense?

Hi,

Thank you for clicking on my question. I promise to be brief.

I would like to kill myself.

But I am not sure if I will succeed in my first attempt.

Cutting my throat or my wrists are a always messy. The blood and the gooey mess it leaves everywhere. Its hard to clean up too. I never made a mess in life, and now should I leave one as I die? I like my carpets. What if I cut the tendons, then I loose my ability to even type a last word or leave a note behind. Even properly cut the wrist on my other arm. Not to mention, the scarlet mark it leaves me with, painting me with more guilt and shame while sending a message, 'Suicide killer here'. Ugh! and now if I don't drain blood fast enough, where do I end up? I really worry for my roommate Marco because of me too. He's the nicest nice guy I know and he's very simple like me. He is fun to be with too. Also I don't know how to tell him that I am out of whack and moody because of that but I really like to have him as my friend and not to hate me. He is either always away or tired sleeping. Last Sunday he made me breakfast as I woke up. And he always checks on me or put a blanket on me if I am cold while asleep. Today he made me dinner, and checked on me twice. Does he already know that I am very depressed and suicidal??

Why do I feel as a failure and instantly get full of hurt and wants to end it all? Anyways, lets do the math, llosing 2.2 liters of blood should result in almost certain death. With that rate of efficiency, its too good of a technique for me to pass it up. As I see it, I come pre-fitted with a pump that can drain the life out of me. Now, why wouldn't I?

Anyways, can somebody with some knowledge of the legal system of the US please answer me? If I don't succeed, will I end up with a charge? Not to mention being labeled as suicidal anyway and even end in treatment?

Thank you so much for your generosity, answers and time taken to read.